Chikhristu matope Islam? Kusankha moyo kapena ambiri?

Kodi kuyambira nkhani yanga? Mwina ine tiyambe kuyambira pachiyambi ndi kukuuzani inu chomwe chinandithandiza zaka 5 zapitazo kutembenuka kukhala Akristu, koma kuganizira tanthauzo la moyo, pankhani ya amene ndili ndi zimene wafika m'dziko lino, kodi ndi ntchito zanga padziko lapansi lino, ndinakhala chaka cha 3 wawo ubatizo. Koma tiyeni onse mu dongosolo.

zinthu mwina ambiri amene ndikuuza mbiri yake, ngati zopeka, anatulukira. Komabe, amene akhulupirira, yemwe ali munachitapo ndi ofanana, adzamvetsa mu moyo wanga.

Kotero ... Ndinakulira m'banja wangwiro ndi maziko ena, miyambo, maganizo dziko anachititsa (Ndinabadwa ndi moyo mu Caucasus, Ossetia). agogo anga pa mbali makolo adadzikweza Asilamu moyo, ngakhale papa yekha monga sanaganize, iye anafotokoza zimenezi chifukwa chakuti Islam anatengera mbali chabe ya banja lathu. Sitinakumanepo ankakhulupirira kuti chipembedzo. mayi anga Mkhristu. Funso kaya kubatiza ana (banja lathu ana 4), makolo, monga osati kudzuka. Ngakhale asanabatizidwe, Ine kutchalitchi, ndipo inu mukudziwa, akubwera kuchokera ku izo, izo mwanjira kuvutikako kuchepetsedwa. Ine ndinaganiza ndinapeza zolimbikitsa, chitonthozo. Ndinkaganiza kuti yankho la "chifukwa chiyani ine?" Kodi "chifukwa chiyani?" Ine ndikuuzani.

Panthawi ina, ndinayamba kuona kuti maloto anga onse anayamba kubwera zoona ... chimodzimodzi monga ndinaona! Ndipo kanthu, koma kuti maloto sizinali zabwino, kapena ngozi kapena kupha (liwu limodzi, imfa wakhala pano pa iwo). Zinali osati bwino anthu kwa ine, koma ngakhale anthu amene sindikudziwa, ndipo konse mu moyo wanga anawona. Mukhoza kufunsa chifukwa chake ndinatenga kuti anthu awa anakwaniritsa zimene ndinaona m'maloto? Izi zinali kapena osindikizidwa mu nyuzipepala kapena wailesi kapena pa TV. Inu simungathe kulingalira mmene wopsinjika kuti kunali kukhuza ine. Nthawi iliyonse ine ndinadzuka ndipo anapemphera kwa Mulungu kuti izo kusiya. Koma maloto ndinaziona kuti mapeto.

Patapita nthawi ndiri nazo, monga, silidzandionanso iwo. Koma ... ndinayamba kuona kwa anthu ovuta kuwamvetsa ochepa. Mu 2003, ndinali pafupi bwenzi kufa (kapena m'malo anaphedwa). Tsiku lomwelo ndinapita kwa iye kunyumba ndipo anali kudikira iwo mu chipinda chake. Pamene anandiuza kuti anatengedwa ndinapita ku holo ndipo anayima pakhomo, atatsamira pa khoma. Pamene anatengedwa pa machira, iye ndege kuchokera gulugufe yaikulu, wokongola kwambiri, mtundu wa moto, ndi pa mapiko awiri mawanga zazikulu wakuda (ndidakali nthawi kuti ankaganiza kuti iwo anali ofanana ndi diso). gulugufe ili, zouluka, nakhudza pamphumi panga nakhala pa cornice ngodya m'chipinda chake. Pa nthawi imeneyi, ndinaitana kwa agogo akale kwambiri. Iwo anandifunsa kuti: "Kodi ndiwe ndani iye?" Ndinayankha kuti tinali mabwenzi. Kodi agogo anati: "Ayi, wokondedwa, ndi zoposa ubwenzi. Inu zinali zofunika kwambiri kwa iye, popeza moyo wake unakwera kwa inu "(pamene ine ndikukumbukira mawu ake, misozi anali kuthira m'maso mwanga ndi kunjenjemera m'thupi). Ine ndi mtsikana akuyimilira komweko, anaweramuka, nati, "Ndani mukulankhula za chiyani?" Ine anawauza kuti: ". Apa ndi agogo izi" Ndikauza mawu awa anayamba kusonyeza izo, palibe apo. Ine ndiri nacho icho ndipo sanapezeke. Atsikana sanali kuona. Tsopano, kundiuza ine chimene icho chinali?

oddity lina ndinaona kumbuyo kwake, pamene iye anamangidwira malo. Ine anabwera kwa iye, atatsamira mutu wake ndi m'mphepete mwa chipilala ndipo anayamba kulira. M'mphepete ena a chipilala kuti zimakwana anayamba kulankhula ndi misozi mwamsanga pamene ine udatotobwa, iwo anali atapita, ngati iwo anali sanakhaleko. Koma ngakhale ndinali galimoto pa malingaliro anga anga, ndizo zonse izo ziri zachirendo kuti sizichitika. Ine ndinaganiza chinali ululu, kupanda kuti linasiyidwa ine atachoka.

Patapita masiku angapo ndinaitana mayi ake kuti, nalira ndi kuwawa mtima, kuti wina nampsopsonetsa nkhope yake pa chipilala, ndipo kokha iye anali acimbadzoza kuda atadzipaka mmilomo, amene anatsalira ichi, sizinathandize. Koma akuti chipilala latsopano kuyitanitsa izo. The mmawa wotsatira ine ndinapita ku manda kuwona mtundu wa Madontho. Zinali ofunda. Dzuwa likuwala. Ndinakhala pafupi ndi chipilala, ndipo kunamukhudza nkhope yake pa nkhope yake, ndipo misozi adakhuthuka m'maso mwanga mtsinje. Pa nthawi imeneyi, ndinaona mayi ake n'kuyamba msanga misozi misozi yanga ndi dzanja lake pa nkhope yake. Pamene iye anabwera kwa ine, iye anandikumbatira ndi kuwafunsa zimene Ndatha kuti amawakhula Madontho a? Ine analibe ngakhale zindikirani iwo anali atapita. Ndinayankha: "Misozi".

Ndi pamene ndinayamba kuganizira za zimene si mophweka mu moyo kuti aliyense wa ife ali ndi cholinga chake, katundu pamoyo. Koma kachiwiri funso la chipembedzo chiyani osadzuka mu mutu wanga tsopano ... Pakadali pano, Ine ndiribe kubwera kwa Yesu mu loto. Iye wotsikayo kuchokera kumwamba kwa ine, mbali tinali mitengo wamtali, panali zabwino kwambiri. Yesu anandifunsa kuti apulumutse mwana wake wamkazi, kundiwuza ine kumene iye ali. Iye anandidalitsa na ciyezezo kumwamba. Ine anamvera pempho lake (I bwinobwino kumbukirani mtsikanayu, wazaka 14, ndi tsitsi lakuda). Iye anali mu mikono yanga, ndipo ine ndinayesera kuti mofulumira ngati nkotheka kachiwiri mu malo tinakumana naye. Ndimakumbukira kuti amuna 3 kwa ine mu njira iliyonse angaletsedwe kuti achoke, ndinazindikira kuti iwo ndi oipa, amene sadakhulupirire, iwo onse anali wakuda, anthu sakanatha kuona. Komabe ine ndinalowa mu munda wa. Yesu kachiwiri pamaso panga, ndipo ndinamuuza kuti ndinachita anandiuza. Ndinkaona kumbuyo kwake mthunzi wa 3. Yesu anagwira dzanja langa, anathokoza ndipo anamudalitsa ndipo anadutsa manja ake pa dzanja langa lamanja. Tenepo iye adabisika kachiwiri. Pamene ine ndinawuka, funso loyamba limene linabwera ku malingaliro anga anali "Kodi mwana wamkazi? Iye analibe ana?! "Pambuyo patapita nthawi Ndinadzuka, ndinazindikira kuti pambuyo onse ndife ana Ake onse ndi msungwana (mwana wake), mmodzi wa ife! Koma kwambiri zodabwitsa kwa ine chinali choona, kuti iye anali kuda nkhawa kuti pa dzanja langa lamanja, akundidalitsa, panali mtundu wa chizindikiro. Ndili choncho pali wina birthmark, ndipo anaonekera wowala chizindikiro (sakumvetsabe kumatanthauza chiyani? Kaya ndi kalata, kapena chinachake?)

Zinali pambuyo maloto ndinayamba kuganizira za ubatizo kuti Yesu si ngozi adabwera maloto kwa ine. Komabe, lingaliro anakhalabe ndi maganizo chabe mpaka tsiku lina, pambuyo pa zaka 2-3, ndinazindikira kuti inali nthawi. Ndipo palibe popanda ena ovuta kuwamvetsa. Ndinapempha azakhali anga anapezeka mu mpingo za ubatizo wanga. Bambo anandiuza kuti ndiyenera kuchita inu tsiku limenelo! tsiku chiyani? 08.08.08! Osawerengeka chizindikiro ... ambiri, ndithudi, adzanena kuti ine Musiyeni pa zonsezi. Izo zapita kuyambira ubatizo wanga, kwa zaka 5. Ine sindikunena kuti nthawi zambiri kutchalitchi, kupemphera (zikuonekeratu kuti palibe kudzitamandira).

Koma izi, ine ndikuopa, kupeza chipembedzo changa Ine angoyamba ...

M'mbuyomu (mwina 3-4 miyezi), ndinachita chidwi kwambiri Islam. N'chifukwa chiyani Ine anamvera Chikhristu koposa Islam? Pa nthawi imeneyo, ine ndinali kulakwitsa, chithunzi penapake molakwika wa Islam, monga anthu ambiri. Tsopano ine ndikudziwa izi ndi zolimba! Ndiyeno mu Russia pa zifukwa zina wakhala anazindikira kristu ndi m'Chisilamunso ankapatsidwa ndi kupitiriza kuchitira mosamala kwambiri (ngakhale zimenezi si zoona !!!) Kotero ndiye ine sanapeze funsolo umene chipembedzo kutsatila. Choncho ndinayamba kuganizira chipembedzo ichi - Islam. Ndinayamba kuwerenga Korani, ndipo inu mukudziwa, ndinkawerenga wa Sur, wamkulu anali kuvomereza za mabukuwa kuti zivumbulutsidwe kwa ife, ndi kuzindikira kuti ndi zoona! Ine ndinayang'ana kudzera kwambiri mafilimu kumene anthu kulankhula za chifukwa iwo anatembenukira kwa Islam, lomwe analichita kutero, ndinawerenga kwambiri nkhani za izo. mtundu uwu pofuna kumvetsa okha, chidwi chawo chipembedzo ichi. Kodi munthu amamva mofanana ine! Mwina nkhani wina zindithandize kupeza yankho la funso limeneli.

Pali chifukwa chinanso chimene ine ndine chidwi Islam. Mu May, ndinakumana ndi munthu akale. Zaka 10 zapitazo tinakumana naye, koma chifukwa confluence a zochitika zina, posakhalitsa anabwereranso kwawo - mu Chechnya (inde, ngati inu kale bwino, ndi Chechen, choncho Muslim). Inu mukudziwa, tsopano miyezi 3 Popeza ndife pamodzi, ndipo ndimathokoza Mulungu tsiku lililonse chifukwa iye. Chaka chino, Mulungu akalola, ife kukwatira. Komabe, padzakhala mavuto ena. Choyamba, ndiyenera kunena Shahada (Chisilamu). Ndipo si izo Mtsikana wotere ine, ndi lingaliro la zimenezo, ndipo zonse mwadzidzidzi akhoza Usatenge, sakanizani mpaka chirichonse, muiwale izo? Nkhani imeneyi ayenera kulankhula ndi udindo waukulu! Kumene, ndidzakhazika kuyesetsa kukwaniritsa zimenezi ndi kupewa punctures. Kachiwiri, Ine nkhawa momwe ine adzatenga banja lake? Ndine poyamba sali mu Muslim! Inde, ine ndikuganiza ine kutenga Islam, komabe ine kuchita izo zochepa Akudziwa mmene angachitile ndi iwo, kodi kuchita? Kumene ine ndinkachita mantha kwambiri. Plus komanso kuti ine ndine wamkulu kuposa zaka 4. Ine ndine odandaula kuti iwo sankalola ine, ndi kuima pakati pa iye ndi banja lake, newo neka yai. Ine sindikufuna chifukwa cha ine kusokoneza asapita, chifukwa palibe kufupi ndi achibale. Amamuuza ine, anati kuti azindikire komanso kuti andithandize, ndiuzeni zimene ndi mmene amandikonda zaka zonsezi 10, ndipo pofuna kuti akonze banja analephera. Iye ali m'banja. Iwo akhala linatha, koma palibe, palibe kuyankhula, chifukwa iwo ndi ana 2. Sindikuzidziwa bwino ndi ana, koma inu mukudziwa, ine ndikuganiza ine ndikuwakonda iwo kale. Ndipo mmene sindingathe tikonda ana a munthu, chifukwa kuti amene Iyeyu anali ndi maganizo amphamvu amene ndikufuna kulumikiza moyo wanga, kuti akonze banja amphamvu, ndi ana? Chachitatu, ndithudi, ine ndine nkhawa zimene makolo anga Mukwatira ku Chechen, ndi kuvomera Islam? Onetsetsani kuti pa mutu osati andilayishire ine! Ine ndikuganiza ambiri kukamvera chabe. O, Amayi ... Pamene ine, ndithudi, osati kuyankhula kwa aliyense musandiuze, kupatula Mlongo wake (iye mwachibadwa anali, kuziyika izo modekha, kudabwa, koma mtundu ngati thandizo, anati izo zinali kusankha kwanga komanso ngati ndili ndi kumudalira, ndi ine). Motikomera, koma chakuti iye sakupereka kukhala Chechnya. Iye watsala 2 zaka kale moyo mu Moscow.

Ambiri, maganizo awa ndi mantha Ine ndekha kusokoneza moyo. Koma sindikuganiza za izo, mwatsoka ine sanapeze. Mwina munthu ali ndi nkhani zofanana ndipo mungandiuze zomwe angapezeke vuto ili?

Ndibweranso kuti chifukwa chimene ine ndikulemba zonse izi. Kotero ine kubatizidwa koma ndinali kukaikira kochuluka ngati molondola ndachita zinthu, mukutengera Chikhristu, osati mofulumira, chifukwa Ndipotu, Ndine za chipembedzo sadziwa zambiri pa tsiku, ndipo mosiyana Islam, Christianity ndinalibe chidwi (aliyense sakufuna kukhumudwitsa mawu awa, Ndimalemekeza zipembedzo zonse, ena monga amapezeka mu Chikhristu, ena - mu Islam, ndi ena - mu Buddhism, ndi zina zotero). Kodi sizingakhale kuti ine kuvomereza zipembedzo zina kusakhulupirika? Si kale, masabata 3 zapitazo, ine ndimafuna kuti ndipite kwa Grozny ndi kupita ku mzikiti, iwo popeza kuti Islam. Koma ine sindikufuna kuti, monga ndiye, palibe kwenikweni kudziwa za chikhulupiriro kuilandira. Izi ndi chinthu chofunika kwambiri! nkhani zimenezi ziyenera anapita dala popanda mwachangu. bwenzi A anandiuza kuti ndipite ku mzikiti wathu. Iye akuti Ine ndimvetsa yomweyo, izo wanga kapena ayi. Monga kumverera m'mlengalenga, kudzakhala kotheka kuti mfundo zina. Ine ndikuganiza, nkhani Mullah akanati kwambiri kufotokoza kwa ine, bola ngati kuti m'mutu mwanga mafunso kuposa mayankho. Koma apa pali nsomba: ngati ine Kuyambitsa - Mkhristu kumeneko? bwenzi ananena kuti palibe vuto ndi izo, iye yekha anapita uko koyamba, osati kukhala ndi Muslim. Pa Intaneti, amene amanena, tiyeni amene analemba kuti si aslam ai sangathe kulowa mumzikiti. Ambiri, sindinamvetsetse, n'zotheka kapena ayi. Ine ndikuyembekeza wina wa inu kukayikira wanga.

Ndikufuna kubwerera ku funso la maganizo a anthu ambiri ku Chisilamu ndi ndikukhumba kuti asinthe maganizo olakwika awo za izo. Kodi ndidazichita. Ngakhale Sindinakhalepo ndi mdani wa chipembedzo. Inu simungakhoze kuiweruza chilichonse wina, mawu mwatsoka, nthawi zambiri molakwika, nkhani. Aliyense wa ife mutu Mulungu aziganiza, maso, makutu amve! Musaphwanye kuti mfundo mopupuluma popanda kudziwa chofunikira! Pakuti aliyense payekha matope mtundu sangagwiritse za onse! N'chimodzimodzinso ndi chipembedzo! Amene yekha anavulazidwa pachifuwa ndi kuitana Asilamu, ndi imodzi analowa m'magulu osiyanasiyana ndi kupha anthu (monga mukudziwa, tikulankhula za zigawenga), ndi zana limodzi la iwo sanali! Quran si mawu - foni ku kupha, kuphana ndi nkhondo! Lemba izi zitheke yekha wabwino wa chikondi, kulolerana wina ndi mzake, chifundo ndi kutithandiza mwagwirizana! Ndine palibe kwina kulikonse adzaitana makamaka sapotoza, koma ine ndingakulangizeni inu kuti osachepera chidwi, chidwi (ngati chiyani sizikumveka mwano) kuwerenga Qur'an. Inu nokha ndiye adzazindikira. Kodi wabwino, kuti, ndi chidziwitso chidzachuluka izi malemba. Mayankho ambiri, ngati si onse a mafunso anu. Ndithudi!

Koma ineyo, sindikudziwa nthawi wanga ndi ine kutchula Shahada (kuvomereza Islam), koma ndikuona kuti ndinali pafupi ndi iye. Tiyenera pang'ono nthawi zambiri pofuna kumvetsa kwathunthu chipembedzo ndi kutenga izo okha, kuti mayankho akusowa kusonkhanitsa chithunzi onse mpaka mapeto. Ine ndikukhulupirira kuti ine chidzapambane!

Inde, Mulungu tithandizeni ife tonse!